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happy father's day - blindrun
[Honestly? He's been here wayyy longer than he planned to be. He knew it'd be hard to escape, but it had to be possible. That's what he kept telling himself. Days turned into weeks turned into months and now? It's been over a year.
The other Inquisitors still don't completely treat him like one of them. Or maybe teasing is their way of doing so? He rolls his eyes whenever they call him "baby brother", thinking they could at least have some sense of professionalism. But everything's been going okay for the most part. As okay as it can be when you're an Inquisitor-in-training.
Except today was... well, it was something else. They were assigned to ambush a small rebel cell that was said to be working with a Jedi. It should've been easy, except for the part where it wasn't. The rebels got away and the Inquisitors had failed. Now Ezra's standing outside the Grand Inquisitor's office while the adults debrief. It's frustrating, being left out like this, but he also knows there isn't much he can do about it.]
The other Inquisitors still don't completely treat him like one of them. Or maybe teasing is their way of doing so? He rolls his eyes whenever they call him "baby brother", thinking they could at least have some sense of professionalism. But everything's been going okay for the most part. As okay as it can be when you're an Inquisitor-in-training.
Except today was... well, it was something else. They were assigned to ambush a small rebel cell that was said to be working with a Jedi. It should've been easy, except for the part where it wasn't. The rebels got away and the Inquisitors had failed. Now Ezra's standing outside the Grand Inquisitor's office while the adults debrief. It's frustrating, being left out like this, but he also knows there isn't much he can do about it.]
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[14 back then. Probably older than some of the Inquisitors were when they were initiated.]
I mean, he always said I had to prove myself. First it was proving that I was strong in the Force, then it was that I was willing to use the dark side, and finally, it was my loyalty.
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[ she can buy testing his force sensitivity, seeing if he would be swayed, but if he corrupted a kyber crystal then wouldn't that be enough? it doesn't add up to what she knows and she suspects there's more to this story. ]
Did he ever... hm. Did he act differently with you than the other Inquisitors?
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Plus it's not like any of the Inquisitors get along that well. We say we're like a family, but it's not like anyone would care if someone died. I thought Third Brother cared about me, but...
[But he was ready to kill Ezra if he didn't fall in line. He wouldn't release his parents either. As Ezra had drifted closer to the light, he'd started to doubt that his master actually saw him as a person.]
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You don't sound like you're ready to let go.
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[he answers with a shrug of his own]
I've accepted that it might be out of my control. And that he's no longer my master. I think that's close enough for now.
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Their kind encourage attachments. However, the attachments encouraged, the kinds formed, are toxic. Remember that. You're rid of him now.
[ whatever third brother's goals were with taking in ezra, none of them were good. it isn't smart to try and turn an inquisitor based off a feeling alone. the rebellion does not have the resources to save people from themselves. ]
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[Ezra sighs, a little tired after all the emotional talk and crystal purification.]
You think this'll finally get the rebels off my back?
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Don't think so. [ sorry not sorry about the honesty. ] I know why that might frustrate you, but they have bones to pick with the Empire even bigger than yours.
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[Which is the thinking of a Force user, not an ordinary person fighting in the war.]
Ugh. I just wanna be able to walk around without everyone thinking I'm gonna kill them.
[They trust Sabine, even though she defected. Except that was a while ago and she also doesn't have scary wizard powers.]
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What should I do?
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[And he still thinks it was somewhat justified, but now's not the time for that.]
Things are different now, and I was hurt by the Empire just like everyone else.
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[ very, very unimpressed. ]
Everyone here has been hurt by the Empire, Ezra. You made the choice to do what you did. Especially if Third Brother didn't drag you out of the academy.
[ which, to her, sounds like the exact opposite. ezra chose to go. ]
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[The Force is all about balance so he balanced it!]
Yeah sure, I had a lot of choices in front of me, you're right. Stay at the academy, probably get used as target practice or a human shield, die. Leave the academy, get labeled a defector by the Empire and get hunted down, die. Somehow escape safely and go back to living on the streets, die. Not to mention execution was pretty much on the table every day when I was an Inquisitor. And considering I'm Force sensitive and Third Brother found me? Not going with him probably meant death too.
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We all have a choice. [ and then she smirks. ] Anyway you escaped the Inquisitors and joined up with me. You think that's somehow better than any other option you listed if your goal is "don't die"?
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[He doesn't realize how sappy that sounds, okay.]
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See. Now try that. Try, without expecting anything in return.
[ she thinks he's used to taking and taking and getting something out of it. the inquisitors taught him how to fight and how to enjoy winning to an unhealthy degree. she needs to teach him humility, because life isn't a game you win at. ]
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[He doesn't get that he was just nice and sincere and genuine.]
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[ she's going to go the "all knowing look" technique obi-wan always did and then turn away. ]
Let's go. Still have a lot of learning to do.